2nd Marathon Training Week 6

Marathon 2 Training Vlog Week 5 and Update

OK, I am back, yes it's been a long while!!

This is me today! I got beautiful for you, you're welcome. 

I have had this blog of private for a long time, because I am not sure I was comfortable with people knowing my weight or seeing pictures of my flabby belly and throwing up in their mouth. ha

But I think I want to encourage someone, I want to inspire someone to keep fighting. To get back up again. This is part of my story, a bigger part than I have wanted to care to admit. 

So here it is, so what?

I had gotten down to about 194 when I started a 40 day fast with my church and that whole thing really through me for a loop. I gained back 12 lbs, grrr!

Such is life. 

About 5 weeks ago I decided, what the heck, I was going to try and train for another marathon.

I didn't write about it here but I did dislocate my knee twice at the beginning of this year. You can read that story HERE

I wasn't really sure if I could train for it, but I thought I would take it one day at a time.

So here, we are 5 weeks in, running my first 10 in a while tomorrow! I have this weird assurance about it. 

The weight part, kinda annoying. I have been running 4-5 times a week and the scale would maybe move half a pound, mostly up. And I hadn't been exercising AT ALL before that!

So, it was discouraging even though I was reading articles about weight gain in training and all that, I was feeling so uncomfortable in my clothes and just gross.

I'm happy to tell you that a couple pounds finally left this week, sheeesh!

My clothes are still tight, but....
one day at a time right?

What sets you back in weight loss??
Share your thoughts and insights!

One Month Update

Things are going well. Currently as I write this I am 10 weeks postpartum and have lost a little bit more, but I had forgotten to update this blog.

The last time I weighed in, last Saturday, I was 212 even and yesterday morning when I weighed it said

210.9!

Slowly but surely coming off. It has been steady though, which I am super happy about.

 You can clearly see a difference in my tummy.

Lucklily my uterus has gone back down to its original size. 

It was so weird getting regular jeans after I had him. Nothing fit right at all because of that weird pooch in the middle there.

I knew I had to start again soon because I had to buy a size 18 jeans!

I am still wearing them because I am not going to buy any others until I can get back into my own jeans.

I was 200 lbs when I started WW after my first pregnancy and I am pretty sure I was between 190-200 when I got pregnant.

So, I have 10-20 lbs till I can get back in those jeans, even then they may be a little tight, but that is the goal.

I was running and trying to train again, but my husband doesn't get home until after the sun sets now with the time change and he doesn't think it will be safe to run in the dark. I did about 4.5 miles on Saturday, but so far this week I haven't worked out yet. I need to start some videos, but I am doing well on my eating...even with all the Halloween candy in the house. So we shall see....

Here is to be under 200 again. Only 11 or so more pounds, woop!

It's Not Quitting if You Never Give

I am starting again on this blog.

After I ran my marathon and all that running the beginning of 2012 I battled with depression again.

I think I was controlling it a lot with running and when I stopped it came rushing back in.

I gained the 30lbs I lost during the fall or that year as I struggled and fed my emotions.

I went up and down about 10lbs once I got back on medication and then in January I found out I was pregnant.

To make a long story short, I just didn't watch my food at all and ended up gaining a total of about 60lbs.

My water broke at 38 weeks, one week to the day that I was scheduled for my c-section and I had a beautiful baby boy that was 8lb 15oz

Aug 27th, 2013

About three weeks after I had him I joined WW and started at

228.4

Time to change...

Clearly the big belly and c-section cause a large overhang of skin.

This does go down with weight loss and the return of some ab work.

Here is a picture I took the week after I started on a date night.

I hate this photo for a million reasons, but its a good before.

The way I don't want to stay looking.

This was before my first workout postpartum.

And these show what exactly that large tummy does to your body after a c-section!

These are my official 

BEFORE PHOTOS

I also was able to start running again yesterday....

Here we go....

Down but not Out

Hi anyone who reads this ever....

So that 30 Day Challenge thing that I wanted to do, yea that didn't happen.
I thought I would e so good at keeping accountable like I did with my marathon, ut nope.

I am not sure but I think I was burned out.

I did keep my running up a vit and even trained for and  ran a half marathon on July 7th.











and then I felt like, OK I'm done.

I wanted to run my full, check.
I wanted to run a half before I got pregnant, check.

And then life kept happening and what I called a break turned into weeks and I could tell my well being and depression were starting to creep back in.

Once I started realizing this was around the same time as the shooting in Aurora. I think the sadness and darkness of all of that made me start having anxiety again and things have been pretty bad or at least hard for me.

Sooo the past few weeks I have had this struggle and life seems to be handing me a lot of hard things right now.

So I MADE myself get ready to at least go out today and run/walk. My sister in law ended up coming with and we did almost 6 mostly walking, ut it was something and it feels good to be back doing something!

I think with all this anxiety again as well I am self medicating with food. I have been eating horribly!
Almost to the point of making myself sick. I know all the sugar is getting to me as well.

I have gained and lost the same 5 lvs a couple times now vut I want to keep working on it. I am not pregnant yet as far as I know, so I can't just stop.

I know this is way easier said then done, but I really want to try.

I calculated all my miles today and you will see in the side there that my dailymile shows I have run 584 miles this year. I really want to get 1000 and in order to do that I will need to run avout 17 miles a week which seems so doable. So whether I walk, jog, or run them I am going to try.

I would love to sign up for another race but we are pretty strapped right now.

I'll try and keep you posted.

To 1000 miles in 2012!

30 day Challenge Vlog

Back from vacation with a gain/30 Day Challenge

So I got back from vacation on Saturday...

Let me just be honest and say that I ate like I was on vacation.

I didn't necessarily feel like I over ate, but I did have lots of treats that I normally wouldn't have had.

I exercised about 4 times, including the marathon in the 2 weeks.

The first time I weighed when I got back I was just preparing myself for the worst. Like a 10 lb gain.

When I first stepped on the scale it wasn't as bad as I had prepared for, but it still wasn't good..5 lbs.

However I started drinking lots of water and got back to my eating habits and this morning was back to 170.

I actually stepped on the scale twice because I needed to be sure it wasn't a fluke... luckily it wasn't.

So...I gained 2lbs, that is much better and workable!

I found myself really worrying about it, I think because everything in our life seemed to change while I was on vacation. The biggest being that my husband got promoted (which is really great) except that he commutes an hr and a half now which leaves little time by the time he gets home to eat dinner, get my son to bed, and hope to go work out. That and I have just been really tired since being back as well. 

I really want to keep running, but again, it's finding the time.

BUT, I have to do something. So I am trying to figure out what might work for this next while, a challenge of sorts.

So I am starting a 30 day challenge.

I am starting it today rather than June 1st for 2 reasons. One, I will use the rest of May to be too lenient with myself and two because my parents are coming at the end of June so I want to be at least kinda finished up by then.

I am going to go through these prompts here just to get my mind in the right place as well.

I made a 30 day work out plan and I will do a video every week as well just to keep me accountable!!

I am going to wait to do this Day 1 until the 29th when I do my updates.

On to the next goal....